Hey everyone.
Posted a while ago but it deleted itself somehow.
My journey began when I had a couple surgery’s over the years and was prescribed a short prescription of Oxycodone. It was the best feeling I had ever felt but obviously I only had it for a week or so those few times.
Years went on without incident and I discovered Rikodeine. I would start by having 50ml which quickly turned into 1 – 2 200ml bottles a day which became very expensive. This has lasted about 2 years with myself going through 6 withdrawal periods lasting between 9 days – 6 weeks.
Those withdrawal periods were absolute hell consisting of horrible sweats, terrible aching lower back, fatigue, no appetite etc… It did however get better after a week but the boredom and light depression was difficult to deal with.
I used to be so happy, loved gym, loved work etc… it kills me knowing I’ve ruined all that by abusing rikodeine. As now I don’t find many things enjoyable and have skipped gym the last year.
The last 2 withdrawal periods I got through and felt better and thought I could do a little bit of rikodeine for a couple days without incident. This turned into a few weeks both times which resulted in withdrawals again…
Just don’t do it again as it will trap you like it did to me. You think you’ll do it a little bit but it sneaks up on you and by then you’re weeks in and have to go through the dreaded withdrawals again.
I am currently on day 3 cold turkey and the last 2 days were a massive struggle. I am feeling loads better today which I attribute to some exercise, music and a positive attitude. Ofcourse I don’t feel great but it’s a lot better than the past 2 days.
The thing I am most disappointed in is the fact I have gotten through withdrawals multiple times and ruined it by doing opioids again. My wife and family think I’m just getting really sick which I play into but it’s really hard keeping it a secret. There is no chance they can find out.
I believe I can beat it this time as I genuinely have felt the impact of beating withdrawals and getting sucked back into it and how bad that makes you feel.
Good luck everyone.