Hey 💜
There’s been so much happening. I did leave home v briefly which helped give mg head a wobble. I’ve returned home but feel a bit better knowing my boundaries and holding onto the peace I felt when I was away
Counselling was ok helped lay some foundations but it was perhaps not as effective as could be if was out if the relationship and moving on.
So much happening though , husband having some of his own life events at moment. He is still using and I’m learning to accept that’s his choice, I am trying not to get wrapped up with his issues now and carry on about my own life. It’s still hard to do at times but something has definitely changed inside me .. not saying I’m totally uncaring now just not willing to let his chaos drag me so far down to the absolute depths of despair that I haved experienced the past few years.
I also found reaching out to my closest friends and family, without going into detail about the addiction, just the behaviour n mental health side of things , has helped me a lot..helped me to realise I’m not a bad person and that I must take better care if myself
Hope all is well with you 🙏