Hi Tanga
Honestly you are better off without him. I’m so sorry you clearly really love (loved?) Him. It spirals and spirals with their addiction and it’s nothing but he’ll I wish I’d left or he left me a long time ago… but nothing is shifting him now….hes let his physical and mental health decline so bad , and has practically dragged me down with him
So please don’t look back , the fact he is in prison at the moment says it all… he is with someone younger who will stand for his bull shit….for now.
I’m so sorry .. I hope in 2025 you can focus on healing yourself , and move on living a much better life … and one day, hopefully soon, you will realise how much better life is without that stress in it.