Nannyger – my heart goes out to you and my heart is with you too. I relate to much of what you said. Sadly, I think for all of us, it’s the first thing we think of when we wake and the last thing we think of when we close our eyes at night. You’re a very courageous woman. It’s not easy to finally draw a line for self protection. As mothers it feels so wrong. I remember when my son was little, I would tell him that there was nothing that would make me stop loving him or being there. How could I have ever seen this coming?!
This is by far, the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with in my life.
My son went home from the hospital on Thursday. He said his COVID is still lingering. He said some terrible things happened in the hospital, and then didn’t tell me what it was, so I don’t know what it could be.
An addiction counselor talked to him about some program that’s outpatient on the hospital campus. He said he wants to try it! I couldn’t believe it, because he’s never, ever agreed to anything! It’s a small, small, glimmer and I don’t want to get my hopes up because he’d have to show up.
And now that he’s home, I’m worried that he will fall back in to his usual ways. He still has all the big problems with his school and money, etc., so there’s that.
It’s strange, our relationship is so strained, and there’s so little for us to talk about that’s not a problem, I don’t even really know how to talk to the son I was so very close to.
Kate- always thinking of you. Wouldn’t it be nice if we knew what to do? Every addicted person is the same and different. Bottom line is we’re moms who want try to anything and yet have zero power over their addiction and lives.
Love to all ❤️❤️❤️