Bump, I’m like you- I do worry what people think. I wish I didn’t. I also feel jealously about other families who have more normal lives. I know everybody has their troubles, but I do know many families, some of them my siblings, who have normal kid problems but not like this with an addicted child. I know it’s not right to be jealous, I just yearn for normalcy with normal kid stuff. And now the holidays are coming up and I always have such sadness that my immediate family is so fractured and my siblings are feeling joy at their families all getting together.
This Thursday is our Thanksgiving Day in the US. My one daughter and family are in a different state, and my daughter near me invited me and my husband over. It’s hard for me to host because I know my son is not able to attend and he’s alone- breaks my heart and yet, he created his aloneness. My daughter won’t have him over because she has little ones and he’s too unpredictable these days. In the past, my daughter would say she wouldn’t come if he’s going to be there if I had everybody at my house. I guess him quarantining from COVID solves Thanksgiving, but then there’s Christmas.
I can’t bring myself to tell my neighbors, because of some embarrassment, but also because it’s too emotional to talk about. I’ve asked my husband not to tell his family too much. My husband is not my kids dad and his family kind of judges. But I think they know because they never even bring him up.
At least we all have each other. ♥️