Hi Kate, you should remember your son and his goodness, that is his true essence and sadly we know that addiction covers that up. And yes, those drug lords, traffickers, and dealers are murderers in a true sense. They have on their conscience all the lives of these addicts who they hold hostage to a degree.
I hope that you will forgive me for being spiritual here, but I believe in an afterlife where we are purified and made new in God’s love and I believe your son is too. ♥️