Hi Daisy thank you for sharing your story it’s never easy pouring your heart out. I can relate to a lot of your experiences and your thoughts and feelings. You managed to cope with so much throughout your relationship with your true love and a lot of people wouldn’t have done that. It is crusifying to watch a beautiful person deteriorate before your eyes, and know the consequences and at the same time know you’re powerless where the alcohol or drugs are concerned. Please don’t beat yourself up with regards to your last text. You were at the end of your tether. Everyone has a breaking point, and you had reached yours. To move forward you need to forgive your partner for putting you through all what you went through on their alcohol journey. You also need to forgive yourself for that text (even though you didn’t do anything wrong). My hubby past 16 months ago now to alcoholism and I didn’t know how I would manage without him. I felt like I had been thrown on a road with so many pot holes amd speed bumps and one massive mountain at the end. I had no idea how I would manage to do this journey on my own. I did some research and found a wonderful charity called The Icarus Trust. I received 6 months counselling free of charge. The beauty of these counsellors are they have all been affected by their loved ones through alcohol or drug dependency. They understand. Maybe you could try them sweetie. With my counsellors help I now know I don’t need to climb that mountain, I can drive around the base. Doesn’t matter how long it takes, I feel I can make it. As will you. My ???? are with you and your mum and I wish you all the best. If you want to private message me you can. Take care. HEARTY.
