Hi Danman83- thank you for sharing thoughts from the other side so to speak. I commend you for being brave enough to read these posts. So many addicts (including my son) don’t want to think about the pain that their addiction causes those who love them. For my son, when he does, he feels guilty about it and then usually relapses because it is too painful and he’d rather not face it.
It sounds like you take ownership for your addiction, another important step. Blaming others is another characteristic of addiction as we all know too well.
Stay the course, stay strong, you can do it. I’ll be praying for you. ❤️