To go into the science of why it makes us suicidal ect.. We have dopamine in our brain, this is the chemicals that make us happy.
So for example now.. Imagine a scale of 1 to 10.. Having a biscuit can make you happy and release dopamine, getting 1 on the scale.. Going out with friends 5, having sex 10… But when you have coke.. Bang.. It just uses all your dopamine up, hence the feeling of euphoria.. And this hits way over 10..now when that goes.. You don’t go back to 0 on the scale.. You go to say minus 10..100… Hence the depression and suicidal thoughts. For days this happens.. Its takes days for your dopamine to rebalance.. Hence when its weekend again.. We think its OK to use again.. But this over time back and forth effects us in the long term depression wise. I hope this makes sence that’s the best I can describe it right now.
He possibly could of had some before he got the gram at 2.15. But I don’t know. Steroids is massive for depression and hormournes and messes with your head aswell.
My kids mum, her cousin aged 21 sadly took his life after his ex sent him picture of her with another lad. So to me it just sounds like a mixture of things, the coke 1st, the gf and the steroids. It all can stay in your system for a while. And does effect you.
Stopping for a week like you said I personally don’t think would of mattered. It can just be years of using or steroids just effected him.
I could be wrong in all this and don’t want to say the wrong thing. I’m just giving you my honest opinion and from my own experience.
I relapsed 3 week ago neally now. I was in my flat on my own. And suicidal thoughts came in my head. But I just try and block it out and it’s hard. And this is how much of a horrible drug it is.
Also like you said girls playing mind girls when your down isn’t good as well for your mental health. I hope I’ve answered it the best I can for you.
What’s the girl said in all this?