Hi all
The post on this thread after Christmas have been difficult to read
The pain and misery of the mums on here makes me so sad
We all walk the tightrope of hope and despair
Clinging to any chink of light
The mums that have lost their boys must rerun all the events up to when it happened
I know I play out what I would do if my son dies from his behavior
But the rawness on here is unimaginable
I think if bereavement counselling is available it would be helpful
I’m back at my sons house with him
It’s comfortable and he is still sober
I’m letting him go out and shop and do things on his own
He is fine not had a drink
He was due to continue his counselling
But he may have to wait months for another referral as the funding had stoped and started again in the new year
He had 4 sessions and it looks like he might be back to square one
How can this happen his anxiety levels are high again
Awaiting a call to day to find out
I don’t want to be here but can’t leave
I hoped he would be able to start going out and meeting people as he has no friends but here in Wales the restrictions are high
Praying for peace for us all
Take care of yourself
Joanie x