Hi girls – I posted last week about the bust up with my son on New Years Day while his girlfriend – he is still in Birmingham and I havent had a phone for a week due to waiting for the new sim card and replacement mobile.
Last night he finally sent me an email asking me to send his walking shoes ‘if that’s ok’ – I responded politely and asked if they were both ok and ended with ‘love you, mum’
I don’t know how to contain the feelings I’m having, I live alone and all the love I have for him is killing me because I cant give it to him and it really hurts not to be close to him. It hurts that he spoke to me the way he did in front of his girlfriend and called me a ‘terrible mother and to get some therapy’. But despite all that I just want to hug him and see his face and try to make things right somehow. Yet I know the arguments were due to his Ket use and his denial of that so nothing will be right if he comes home if he cant change. So, I have no one to talk to and just sit crying and staring into space. I wish his girlfriend had been more of a friend and seen both sides – but she’s always been cold toward me and very needy with him….so I guessed that wasnt going to happen.
I suppose I’m just asking – how should I behave. Just politely and lovingly and try and get on with work and routine? I never thought it would come to this – we’ve always been so close.x