Hi in total agreement with all the comments
We do have to accept that people have free will and everyone has a choice as painful or as difficult it is to accept
The main thing is to focus on you now .
I realised I had been so absorbed on fixing and rescuing my partner that I had stopped living myself
The main thing now is to start thinking about what you want and to start planning things to start having fun again .
It will take time , and we all have days where it hits you and it feels surreal.
The main thing now is to plan your life and enjoy the moment & start thinking about future happy times ????????????