Hi all
I seem to be posting a lot
I’ve been with my son for nearly 4 months
My partner went home a week ago
He had things to do
My son is doing well not drinking back working from home on nearly full time hours
Having his counseling
Making an effort to try to meet people
He’s joining a couple of social groups
All going on the right direction
But I feel as if I’m losing my mind
I can feel myself fading away
Being nothing but a crutch for him
I’m 69
I miss my friends and family so much
I’m not sure how to get out of this situation
I don’t even think he realizes how unfair this is on me
It’s like Groundhog Day
I don’t have a car here it’s not rural but it’s too far to walk to any shops
And the weather has been awful so i haven’t even been able to just walk
I finally have a capture wardrobe because
I only have basic outfits ( jeans and jumpers ) ????
No reason to dress up my hair needs cutting my nails are not great
Where have I gone
I don’t think I’m depressed just In despair of this situation which I have created for myself
I’ve fallen out with my granddaughter
Quite a serious rift over her cocaine addict husband and money
Much as I’m angry with her i miss her texting me
If I leave and he starts drinking I will have achieved nothing
Sorry for the woe is me rant
I’m waiting to get up to repeat another boring day
Hope everyone is doing well
Love and hugs
Joanie
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