Hi Joanie,
I thought of you this morning and then your message popped up. You have been amazingly good to your son. He is very lucky to have you and I appreciate why you would feel you should stay as he is making such good progress while you are there. I know roughly where you are in Wales, but am not sure how far from there you live. Would it be possible to start going home for a few days a week and coming back again. I think you said in one message that your son was spending time at your house. I guess if your son’s relationship with your husband isn’t great it might be less stressful for you to go there. You are caught in a double bind because he obviously has a good job and that is one of the things that will really help him back to normality. Everything got so much worse for us when my son lost his job. He hasn’t worked now for nearly 2 years and will struggle when he does go back to the workplace. Do you ever have a conversation with your son about how all of this is impacting on your life? I know its a small thing, but try and get out and find a hairdresser, you need to hang on to you.
We had an interesting start to our day, my son and my partner came to blows over something really silly but everything came to a head. He has reduced his heroin usage but is using sleeping tabs to help with the side effects, these turn him into someone I don’t really know. Strangely heroin doesn’t do that. I am under pressure to move to another part of the country to help my son get his life back together. I see the benefits for him in being back near friends, but he is no where near ready for that. I am scared about hanging on to my job as its hard to now argue to manage things via Zoom when everyone else is heading back to the office.
I hope everyone is okay and staying strong. At least the sun is shining today and its not raining.