So sorry about your loss. I’m currently separated from my husband of 34 years. He’s been a heavy drinker for at least ten years. He has lost his license to drive, has alcohol neuropathy, looks awful from lack of nutrition, and was recently diagnosed with prostate cancer. I delayed the divorce filing so he can get surgery performed under my insurance and helped him detox this last time which was severe with the tremors and vomiting but he made it through. He stayed sober for two weeks and picked it back up again. This disease is maddening and after all these years, I’m still so angry and disappointed. I feel like I can’t continue to care more for him then he does himself. I have to move forward with the divorce despite his cancer and health insurance needs. But then I’m consumed with guilt.
Thank you all for sharing your stories to help me navigate the most intense negative emotions this awful disease provokes.