My husband is also in what appears to be his last stages of this disease and also won’t shower, shave, eat, is too weak to walk and only finds the will to get more booze – as his tremors are extreme without it. He needs surgery for cancer and just came out of his last bender for a two week run of being sober just to pick it back up last night. He said he doesn’t want to live life sober. I feel like he just doesn’t want to live having lost so much – his marriage, his relationship with his kids, his license, his work. But he says that’s not the case.
I’m grateful to not have to witness this decline daily but am wracked with fear, anxiety, guilt, anger, sadness and grief for having lost the wonderful man I know him to be before alcohol destroyed him. I am sad to hear of others suffering but am comforted others know exactly what I’m going through.