Hi everyone, my son canceled several times and then finally admitted that he had started drinking again. It’s hard not to be disappointed, but I do understand that he is addicted and this is the nature of alcoholism. It was just so soon and it makes me afraid for his health.
I stopped by his apartment yesterday to drop of some things and gave him some home cooked food. He got in the car and he wasn’t sober, so there were tears and guilt and the “whys”. He’s clearly in a tortured state and it was just heartbreaking. I just told him I loved him and to just keep trying. He said he tries every day and no one sees it. I told him that I’m sure that is true, but that I really want him to get external help as in counseling and support groups. He said he’s already trying to taper down to stop, but who really knows. I can’t imagine living the mental and physical torture he does every day.
It’s been tough on me and I’m aware that I need to take a breather and get back on my feet. I haven’t been feeling too good and my Rheumatoid Arthritis has been flared up, and my vocal chords have been flared up from reflux due to stress and I’ve been hoarse. So I’m just going to try and catch up on some rest.
And then Easter’s coming up and as usual we can’t all be together. My family is to a place that many of them would be fine with him coming, but I actually don’t think my son is ready to talk to that many people about himself. I asked him about it, and he agreed with me that it would be too much.
I hope that all your sons are doing alright, thinking of you all with love and prayers. ????