I’m that 37 year old man that keeps using cocaine . When it’s ok I can keep a job and just about get through a paycheck when it’s bad I nearly crash my car whilst hammered beg borrow and steal cash and destroy any romantic relationship I have . I’m actually quite good looking and that makes it worse as I have no excuses at all . I’m lost and can’t afford rehab . Have no friends to confide in and wish I had to courage to kill myself . I think rehab or distance away for at least a month is the only option we hich is something I can’t do. I wish you all the best
