Pambler it’s good you recognise you have a problem as that is a start.
I dont know your personal situation but if u are homeless then there are charity’s that give free rehab.
Also my son couldnt have been more anti the 12 steps bit now swears by AA and NA but after a relapse now knows he has to 12 steps all the time to stay clean.
He now has his AA friends and people there that support him so maybe it’s worth a try? Also if you ring round a few places they may be able to signpost you to some free rehab places?
The only way I stumbled on the rehab place for my son was frantically calling people….it took a while and is a shame it wasnt so easy to find
It’s good u are looking for help. Just hang in there..the fact u acknowledge u have a problem and want to change is great.