Thankyou xx yeah it makes me feel awful knowing that all you guys have been through hell and I’m doing the same thing to my mum and also knowing that without all the drugs I’m actually a very sensitive and caring individual . It’s been 20 years or wasted moments and wasted relationships and that’s hard to swallow . This morning it’s been four days since I last used and that is better than I’ve done for a long time . I’m struggling with sadness today and that sadness grows as each day goes by without the release of using . I think writing to you guys is helping and I’m not going to use today . I can feel that inside so that’s good but tomorrow is another struggle . We will see how I get on . Take care all you guys
