Hi Jennifer,
I was really sorry to read your message, and so many others that have been posted recently. I think you hit the nail on its head when you said that this is such a lonely life with an adult child in this situation. Its like been stuck in some sort of twilight world, where you only share the bear details with other people, you can’t plan to do anything because you don’t know what is going to be happening in a week or a month.
You didn’t say what drugs your son uses, but it sounds like he got himself into all of this at a very young age, which is heartbreaking.
I don’t know if you are getting any support but there is really good counselling available through Adfam and drugsfam has a really good helpline.
Like you, I feel like I have gone off the scale with stress and anxiety and it feels like there is no end to it.
My son is not living with me at the moment and although there are still problems and the whole situation could blow up at any moment it has been great to have a few weeks of relative normality.
Take care of yourself you will find lots of understanding people on this site.