Thankyou both, helps when you speak to people in similar situation, but I wish to god I wasnt even having to use this forum, I am sure you understand what I mean by that! If someone would of said to me 15 years ago that my sweet kind little lad that was obsessed with the Simpsons and Mario cart lol was now addicted to cocaine and alcohol and spends most of his time on his phone trying to get his next fix of anything! I have lost my son, he no longer has morals or empathy or feelings for anyone I wish I had a time machine to go back I know if I’d been more clued up then I could of prevented it all.
I honestly think I am going insane, I too don’t like going anywhere as worry too much what will go on the odd time I do its constant phone calls for money and always drama so easier stay home although 99 percent of time I long to be somewhere far away middle of nowhere.
God I am having bad day so sorry to ramble
As I sit writing this he is roaming the house shutting all the curtains even though it’s daylight, he’s sweating and just been sick as he’s overdone it! This has become normal life for me now but tonight is actually better than last night when he was out all night wrecked, that’s when you sit there just waiting for him to stagger in or thinking is the police gonna knock at door sleepless nights are worse.