Sorry for not posting for a while.
I have read all ypur posts and just feel for everyone so much what we are going through.
Sometimes I just am too emotionally drained to write back.
It is domestic abuse what we go through and so much more support shld be out there for as you’ve e all said the real victims us!
I know addiction is a disease and it changes people but so much of what we go through is far worse than the addict.
Penny paint that smile on and be there for your grandchildren as we need to protect the innocent ones.
So many times I’ve just got on with things painted that smile on and plodded on when underneath I’ve been a wreck. But I’m glad I did it.
I really feel now I have PTSD from what I’ve gone through.
I dont sleep and I’m a anxious mess. My son is dry atm hes still not nice to me but at least atm hes dry and drug free but the emotions and worry and stress remain.
After the first relapse I realise I can never fully relax it’s a black cloud ever present. But I count my blessings he is alive and doing okish.