Hi Everyone
I haven’t felt able to reply as I’ve just felt so overwhelmed by everything – but then it seems so rude not to acknowledge all the supportive responses. So here I am to say thank you to everyone.
Nothing has changed with my situation. I’ve asked my son to move out – offered to find the money for a deposit on a bedsit and a couple of months rent (which won’t be easy for me, but I’ll take out a loan or something). He just refuses to go. I counted over 60 cider cans in his room this morning – and he sits outside in his car, drinking cider and swigging from bottles of wine. Add that to the diazepam the doctor prescribes and the 60 he orders at a time from the internet, he hasn’t;t the slightest intention of trying to tackle the problem and just constantly berates me for not listening to him. He said if I greeted him n the mornings with ‘hi, how are you feeling? Do you want to talk about your feelings with me’, that he would be ok. Maybe I should. But I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have it in me any more, because if I don’t say the right thing, he’s aggressive and argumentative.
I’m so very sorry for all those of us who suffer because of addiction. I just wish there was more understanding and more medical support.
I’m glad I found this forum, at least. Thank you again everyone xx