Hi Imagine, welcome to the forum and to this thread. Thank you for sharing your story, I’m sorry to read that your son’s addiction is causing you distress.
The mums here are all very supportive, and understand what you’re going through. Everyone is in the same boat, but at different stages in the addiction.
No one judges and there’s people to talk to when you think no one else will understand.
Drugfam and Icarus trust also offer counselling services.
There are also people in recovery offering support, read Danman83 or Jamesb posts.
Please look after yourself in the meantime, your son will have to seek support when he’s ready.
Try not to let his addiction consume you like it does him.
Sending love and strength,
Lx ❤️