Hello everyone, I haven’t posted in a while….but I still read the messages. I’m at a year and a half in. I try to stay busy still to keep my mind off of everything. I don’t cry as much, I don’t know if I’m just cried out or Just simply numb. I miss him every second of everyday. Once upon a time we were so deeply in love. He was a wonderful man…. my soulmate no doubt about it! This horrible disease changed him… he became someone that hated me, someone that seemed like a stranger. My husband seemed to have faded away years ago. This will be my struggle for the rest of my life. I still love the man that I married. I try to remember the good times, but then memories of how everything happened creep in. I am so thankful for this thread and this forum. You all understand and can relate to how this disease corrupts the drinker and all that love them. Thank you all for your continued advise and words of encouragement. No one can relate to this hell unless you’ve lived it.
