Thank you MaryPoppins23, sorry for the rant i just feel i have very limited options for support and feel a massive amount of guilt for even thinking about myself.
My son is older and doesn’t live at home, but feel too embarrassed to discuss the problem with anyone.
I am going to try and see my gp (easier said than done). Back home after work to find him flat out and an empty bottle, cant even get 2 words out if him, and worry he will never get back to work or talk.
Thanks for listening