Hi Layla
There’s some videos about opiate tapering on YouTube that might help. I think 10% per week has been suggested to minimise withdrawal although you will still get some symptoms they will be more manageable.
Try not to feel ashamed. No one deliberately puts themselves in this situation. There’s always a reason and a solution and hope.
For the first time in about 15 years i have gone on holiday without my pills and it has been great! I never thought I could do it. Its a relief not to be waiting for next dose.