Hi,
I just wondered how everyone is doing. I haven’t been on for a while because life has been chaotic.
I have temporarily moved in with my son, about 100 miles away from where my home is. I’ve done this to be there for him while he comes off heroin. Its been a really awful 4 weeks, obviously worse for him, because of withdrawals and just how ending opiate usage leaves you. To start with he was abusing sleeping pills and anti-anxiety meds, leaving him in a much worse state than heroin, which just seems to make you lazy. He has handed over control of his bank account – which I think shows a definite intention to follow through on this. Being 4 weeks off is a major achievement, he has now started taking subutex which is an opiate substitute, a bit like methadone. This has a long way to run, and there is a lot that can go wrong.
He is not going to NA meetings yet, which was part of the deal, so I am trying to encourage this, otherwise we may as well be back in my town, as the whole reason for being in the city is that there are meetings on a daily basis.
I went to a Families Anonymous meeting last week – that was interesting, good to talk to others about it and to take some literature away. There’s nothing new in any of this but its good to talk face-to-face and to hear other people’s experiences.
My son is awake all night and asleep most of the day, and because of this I am sleeping pretty badly, which doesn’t help. I am carrying on my job remotely but not sure how long I can sustain that before the people that I am supposed to supervise start to complain. I am hoping to be able to go home for 2/3 days a week soon, but we aren’t there yet.
I’d love to hear how everyone else is doing – I think of you all a lot and hope that things are getting better.