I have been going through this with my son for nearly 10 years now. On and off (mostly on) Ketamin and constantly on crack cocaine. I have tried absolutely everything I’ve blackmailed and bribed and screamed and shouted and thrown him out. I’ve called the police and had him arrested and I’ve even more or less tried to pay him to stop but he’s just getting worse.
He started going to CA/AA meetings which were fantastic and he had a sponsor then he relapsed He had another sponsor who was really great as he had also been addicted to crack so really understood but a couple of weeks ago he gave it all up again and has refused to go back saying he can do it alone and that I have been brainwashed by the meetings.
I feel that he simply doesn’t want to stop! He begs for help and says he can’t go on and desperately wants to stop but now he can’t seem to go more than a few days. If he hasn’t got crack then he’s got ketamin. A couple of weeks ago I took the most horrific videos of him on ketamin and he hasn’t had it in the house since as he agreed that he was dangerous and I wasn’t safe… I doubt that will last though
I’ve got control of his money and his bank account but still he manages to get drugs. He was due home around 4.30 today from the gym but it’s now 8pm so I know exactly what he is doing snd doubt he even stepped foot in the gym
He ruins my life every single day but he simply doesn’t care all he cared about are drugs. Two of his best friends are dead one died quite horrifically both due to drugs but still he carries on
I’ve now simply accepted that there’s no hope at all whatsoever