Between both my son and daughter this last year I have shelled out £26,500 and I am so ashamed of myself we have had the highs with my son not doing it for a bit you think this could be it is it over but then now you just wait for the crash and burn as you know its coming. I am lucky that I have friends I no longer have any savings which I will never forgive myself for it just seems to me that they take no responsibility for their behaviour there is no consequence they assume we will always house them and feed them, my daughter is very verbally abusive if I try to question her I’m now drinking more wine than ever to just get thru some evenings is it horrible to say I hate her being here I hate the atmosphere she brings to our house I hate she does everything we ask her not to do I have really tried with her these past 4 weeks but she listens to nothing she still does exactly what she wants.
I have no idea the thought process they go thru the effects this has had on both of them on their bodies to me is horrific yet there is no incentive there still to stop, the fact my son lost his best friend to an accidental drug overdose 2 years ago has not stopped him I am now at the point I feel I have to admit defeat unless they want to change they wont I’m just not prepared to witness this life they want to lead anymore of have it under my roof. My daughter is going away with her dad on Tuesday for 5 days when she is back I am calling him to talk thru whats been going on I have started writing a daily diary on my laptop of what happens each day I do recommend it because I think when you read it back it makes you realise how bad this is and its something I will be showing my daughter at some point.