You definitely will be better off without him.. so will I be better off without my husband who is addicted to cocaine & crack cocaine.
However, at times I think maybe there will be some way for me to cope with it. Maybe I can have some sort of separate life but still be able to love him as I do. Just “separately” some how. BUT.. I am so tired, and tired of the hurt it causes me. I just don’t even want to be around him. I have no trust in him.. I don’t believe anything he says. It really sucks to have to live like this.
I know and understand some of the reasons for the addiction .. but that doesn’t make my hurt go away.
Is there a way to separate my emotions from this and depersonalize it? Can I be a friend that can help him get through it and done with it?
What to do? Live in this unhealthy lifestyle? Get out and be without the man I love? God only knows.
There are so many unknown answers to these questions.
Then after all this thinking and praying and hoping.. I just want to be D.O.N.E.
But mostly I just want PEACE ❤️