Oh rosie
i know exactly what you mean, I’ve been going through this for years, we give them all the love and support and they throw it back, i said when he gets the urge to use let me know and i will keep him busy, we could go out, we could watch a movie, play cards, anything at all for this to pass also I have said no drugs in house, but that has been ignored in the past.
I have to be honest I don’t think anti-depressants work, they just mask the problem, as he has a business does he not want to go into rehab? If when he starts NA I hope it’s not just a weekly meeting that it is a daily meeting as they need this, he needs to do the tasks, and fill out a diary of how he is feeling and every hour is a bonus, do you know what starts him off agin Stress? Argument? Feeling of no hope? As what I’ve learned the drug prays on the weekend, the reason he has become an addict.
im trying to give as much support as possible but I am drained .
Ive spent most of Christmas break on my own, the accusation that I’m having an affair or been seeing someone is awful and he says he can’t hold a conversation with at the moment, the hurtful things he says. The in the next breath he loves me so much it hurts so why can’t he give this white stuff up for us. He really needs to improve his mental health. He has heard of the cold water therapy too.
im hoping for 2024 to be clean, healthy & happy. I wish this for you too.
let’s see how January goes. It’s make or break for me as I can’t go through this again. I’m guessing your at this stage too?
take care of yourself xx