Thanks so much for your reply Wynter – yes it’s definitely the hardest thing of all.
I managed to get about 5 or 6 hours sleep last night which I’m really happy about but as you say waking up in the morning with these horrible doom and gloom feelings is just awful.
Especially as in the past I would have got the my girls ready for school and then their dad would take them and id just happily go back to sleep, now it seems I’m up for the day and I’m constantly thinking of the day ahead, how am I gonna stop myself from having anxiety until I’ve got something or someone to take my mind off it.
I’m going to visit my sister today with my Dad then I’ll be picking the girls up with him, my eldest always stays at her grandads tonight and I’m wary that I’m going to be on my own with my youngest, who is disabled, for a couple of hours before their dad comes home and I am absolutely dreading it already.
I’ve not even started my day properly yet and I’m already thinking about the parts of the day where I’m going to be alone with my thoughts.
So so exhausting and I can’t stand this horrible feeling in my stomach, makes me feel so sick but I’ve forced myself to eat some breakfast.
Also, did anyone struggle going out in public at first, I went out yesterday to Aldi and Home Bargains with my mum and I felt so on edge and like my brain was running slower than it needed to be it was such a strange experience.
Hope everyone is well, sending love x