Gosh! I can relate to your story. My eldest son, 36, is a heroin/crack addict and is homeless in London. He has made several attempts to get off the drugs and alcohol but after 100+ days he relapses. I have been like you trying my utmost to help him and feel helpless, tired, sad and at a loss. My younger son is a gambling addict and he continues to risk so much for his addiction – family, job and friends. Reading the posts on this site helps me to understand just how hard it is to break an addiction. Their brains change so unlike us they cannot make rational decisions or if they do they can’t stick with them. I don’t think any addicts really fully recover although some are able to manage their habits better or replace them with healthier habits. I wish I could offer you something that has worked but so far I haven’t found anything. The lies and feeling betrayed is very painful but like me you are a mother and a mother’s love sees no boundary and means it’s so hard to let go. I will always have hope and maybe one day I will be able to look back on this. Xx
