Hi All,
Two things:
Realise that none of this is your fault. If they are abusive to you, that’s the drink talking, not the person.
Leave, any way you can get away do it, before they destroy you. Every adult is responsible for their own lives, they do not have the right to destroy the lives of others, especially disguised as love. It’s not love, it’s toxic.
Find the strength to leave, you deserve a peaceful future. Good luck. xxx