Lozzy,
This morning I don’t feel so strong. I don’t know what to do… I do want to leave. I’ve read so many of your posts, and realise you feel the same.
but it’s so hard isn’t it!!! I don’t want to give up on him, but I also feel that this could go on until he’s too old to do it anymore, by then, I may not even be here anymore! If I move back to my mum and dads (for the second time), I most definitely would not come back. It’s too much to put my son through I think – not that he will remember, but he’s just over 1 now and I think he will definitely understand the change in his own little way.
I do not know what to do!!!! When you love someone it hurts to leave. I’m still not angry, I still feel emotionally done and checked out. But if I leave, there will be no coming back. But if I stay, I will have to put up with this for a long time. 🙁
sending love xx