You are so right. I didn’t trust my own gut, or my own heart. I loved him too much. And, the weird behaviors started when so many good things were happening for us after years of being in love and in a solid relationship, new house, pregnant with our first, and me graduating college. How could our love story be over. Can’t be true. We met fifty years ago when we were so young. When my instincts were telling me something was really wrong, I refused to believe it. He treated me so badly for no reason. So, I didn’t look at it. Prayed for us and tried to make it ok for me and our kids. Only now am I am beginning to learn his truths and I am shattered. How do I make it ok for myself now? I don’t even know where to begin.
