I’ve been spending my nights in the spare room, so hard to sleep. My cat keeps me company. I’m so stressed out, trying to calm myself down so that I can get some rest, but I can only sleep about 4 hours or so. Then I lay here awake. How does it come to this? I have always been all in, while he continues to lie. After all these years, I keep wondering why I have been so good to him. Why? Why have I wasted all my life on a man who has cheated so many times and lies. I should have left him years ago. My advice – get yourself out of this crazy stuff, don’t have children with him, sort yourself out, and never choose this again. Nobody is worth it. He quit coke decades ago. It doesn’t go back to where you were before coke, weed, alcohol, whatever. I wish someone would have told me that decades ago, or I could have just believed it myself. So, I am telling you now – run for your lives ladies. Go to therapy and figure out why you chose this person before the best years of your life is gone forever. If you feel that he is cheating – that is because he is cheating. If you feel that he is lying – that is because he is lying. Trust yourself. The person that you fell in love with is gone. Gone forever. Sorry for your loss.
