Hello I am new to this site and your story is a mirror of my own as well. My son is managing to hold on to jobs but his moodiness means he does fall out with people so it’s always a worry about how long it will last and whether he is drinking while at work (he says he doesn’t any ore but I just don’t know) . I love him so much and have tried to support him for the last 15 years of his drinking which has just steadily got worse, through a CGL detox programme last year, paying his rent for that month so he could take the time needed to end one job, do the detox and find a new one. He’s losing friends, has upset family members and he only really has me and one other left, plus a couple of decent friends who stick by him for now. He won’t take his antidepressants. I do have a couple of supportive friends who are there for me but as you said they have their own lives and can’t fully understand. I think my son has ADHD and this leads him to need to calm himself through weed and drink but I just don’t know where it’s going to end as he’s has also spoken about suicide. He can be so nasty and hurtful when he’s been drinking, dismissive of me when I try to talk to him even when relatively sober, but is actually a loving person but he just can’t find it within himself to change his ways. Thank you for reading and I hope you’re doing OK and managing to have some good days. I’ve just spent the weekend away from him and deliberately not spoken to him for 2 days just to give myself a couple of days headspace. You aren’t alone x
