Hello there, just wanted to tell you that I do know how you feel as I felt like this for so long. I have a very similar situations to yours. I found out of my husbands addiction to heroin when I was 3 months pregnant. We met just an year before and it was like living in paradise. He was so caring and strong. Then we move
to the big city and problems started. I was totally ignorant during my pregnancy, not even knowing how degenerative and addictive the heroin was. 5 years on the struggle continues – I went through all stages starting with denial and anger, then the threats of leaving him, we went to ask for help and he got on Methadone program and Subotext and kept lying to me and his child that one day he will be clean. Finally I realized that all that time my life was around him or his problem. So where was my life? I suggested him to look for help himself and moved on. Now he is in a rehab( 1 year ). Weather it is going to work for him or not I don’t know – but that doesn’t matter now. I have my beautiful child and my life to live. Only the future will show whether he will be part of it or not. the decision is his. I know for myself that I wont be manipulated anymore and live my life in fear or shame. Once when you show respect of yourself then others will see it as well. That might be the answer for you. Sorry if the post is too long or boring but just poured my heart out. Be strong xxx
