Havent slept all night, my son has been a crying mess….Been ringing round today and on Monday he will be having blood tests done to start a course of medication that stops him drinking..(will know more Monday) He had his first counselling with a private counsellor this afternoon ( after I begged for her to see him) which I am paying for which deals with emotions and getting to the brunt of his problem…She has identified already that he is suffering with severe depression, anxiety a form of mental health issues which she believes stem from the alcohol /drugs..She believes there is a reason why he continues to use them to block out something / life , feeling let down, unloved….I believe I know what it is…the fact his dad was never round, never made him feel truly loved, and when he was around constantly made promises he couldnt keep…..He wrapped his arms round me as we were going to the car, and said he had nothing to say to me other than sorry…..What I will say is she does not want him to get anti depressants, until she sees him again, she believes he can conquer this without substituting one drug for another…And she has asked him to list all the good things in his life and bring it with him in the next session…….I am in awe of him, and the hard road ahead…he is scared, frightened and angry, but hopeful………I just hope when hes back in court they will see this is a man who needs to get help..putting him in prison wont be the answer at this stage, but I trust the judge will do the right thing…If he does go to prison, then I have told him we will put everything on hold, and carry where we left off…None of us are going anywhere…..pray for him, cause he needs all the prayers in the world x
SAD AND TIRED…..Keep the faith and hope…..it can happen to all our kids who have been dragged down by their drink.drug fueled life….You and I have to remain positive….sending you luv n real hope x
