Hey sad and tired……I know its like living in a bad dream. Dont give up hope, but dont enable him eother…its hard, and the best advice I was ever given is WAIT….Wait for them to come to you…Yes my son tries to manipulate my feelings, but as hard as it is, I ignore his words. Ive had times when I havent heard from my son…days….its part of the addiction……as long as they are doing it they stay away….. Deep down your son knows you love him, and also knows you hate his life….They have no shame, and its disgusting, I hate it when the phone rings and I hate the bad mouth he has become…..Thats drugs and alcohol for you.. Stay strong hunni, you are NOT a terrible mother, but one like so many others that cant make this go away…. My lad is fantastic with his hands..can fix anything, and when he has been working, they all say he is a grafter..but once the drugs and alcohol get hold all that goes out the window……He is coming to stay tonight so I can take him tomorrow, to get the medication to stop him drinking…..then court Wednesday….and IF he doesnt go to jail, then another counselling session…..im tired, not eating properly, and snappy with the rest of the family…but Im his mum, and have to do whatever I can to atleast help him…….I hope he wants it bad enough!
