Hi kelly well I am sat at my kitchen table crying my eyes out while he sits n laughs to family guy on tv. I am waiting for daylight hours to come. I agreed he could stay just for one night due to his appt for iapt tomoz and low n behold hes demanding money so he can buy tablets for his diazepam addiction and becos I wont give him anything I am the worst person in the world not that his words hurt me anymore he disgusts me. he has’nt acknowledged his kids and I think the time has come to let go I will never be enough for him neither wil his kids we dont look like a diazepam with 10mg on printed on us. so now I have to try n sleep thinking that as soon as my eyes shut he wil steal something I have my purse down my knickers (seriously) and my car keys in my bra. Told him he needs to stay away he is’nt strong enough to do this but its me thats the problem if only I would go to the bank at midnight or even better give him my bank card (its not happening). I know now that he cannot be bothered about me no man would sit n watch his partner sobbing surely n there u go he can its confirmation for me to let him go I cannot do this anymore. Thank u kelly for being u I wil speak to u soon xx
