So sad to hear your story. There is help out there for people like yourself. The Icarus Trust is a charity which supports people who are being affected by the addiction of a friend or family member.
Please think about contacting us, because we could put you in touch with one of our ‘Family Friends’. These are experienced trained volunteers who you would be able to talk with. This is a free service and it might help you to know what to do next.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that you will be able to find some support for yourself. Good luck!
