This is so hard for you to deal with and I wonder if it would help to talk with someone who has had lots of experience of what you are going through.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We are here to support people, like yourselves, who are having to deal with a loved ones addiction. We offer a free service called ‘Family Friends’ who we could put you in touch with. You would be able to talk with one of them and may be that would help you to work through your worries and anxieties. They would also be able to signpost you to other services which might be able to help your son.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I do hope that you are able to find some support for yourself as well as your son. Good luck!
