I feel so sorry to see what huge emotional issues you have had to face and what hard choices you have in front of you. I really urge you to find some support for yourself, to help you deal with what you are going with.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We support people who are dealing with a loved one’s addiction. We have a free service called ‘Family Friends’ who are trained volunteers with lots of experience of what you are going through. If you would like, we could put you in touch with one of these. Talking with a ‘Family Friend’ might help you to make sense of what is happening and help you to sort out your feelings and find a way ahead.
Please contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that you can get support which will give you cope with everything. Good luck!
