First of all can I say you are not useless, it’s obvious you have been hurt badly in the past and are burying your true feelings. How your mother was/is wasn’t your fault, I too have a son who lost his father at a young age and has found it hard to come to terms with. He is so full of anger, pain and frustration. He is now having counselling on a one to one basis which is helping him. Go and have a chat with your doctor who can put you in touch with numerous people who can help. I really feel for you as your so young to carry such a burden, please don’t give up and remember you are not responsible for other peoples actions. Please focus on the future and the good things in life as i’m sure with help you will succeed
