Hi Brenda,
This is really hard for you and I am so sorry that you feel that things are out of control. If you would like to talk to someone who has had lots of experience of talking with people in similar situations to yourself please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the family and friends of addicts. Our trained volunteers are called ‘Family Friends’ and you could be put in touch with one of these if you think it would help.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that talking through with people who understand what you are going through might help you.
Good luck!
