Hi Bell,
I do agree with Mrs M that it is important for you to get some support for yourself because what you are having to deal with is so hard. The Icarus Trust is a charity that supports the friends and families of addicts. If you contact us we could put you in touch with one of our experienced trained volunteers. Talking through your experience with some one who understands what you are going through might help you not to feel on your own and may help you to find a way forward.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope this helps.
